Yesterday we had Lexi’s first appointment with New Impact. I really didn’t expect it to be such a hard appointment. And I should’ve because I beat myself up regularly for mom fails. I went in there expecting everyone to be super thin and attractive like some Hollywood tv show. That was not the case. I mean not that they were giant trolls or anything, but you get the point. We sat down in the waiting room and patiently waited our turn. Finally we were called back, and Lexi starts her weigh in and vitals checks. Then the nurse looks at me and says “mom if you’re bringing her to the visits, we need you to weigh as well.” I knew this was their procedure, but remember I struggle with the scale? I slid my shoes off and reluctantly stepped up. Guys, I am down NINE lbs since 2/28!!! I couldn’t believe it. Those numbers never move for me…especially at the doctors office. Those scales are weighted by Satan. They have to be.
Anyway I was really excited. I looked at Lexi’s numbers….she’s up three pounds. How did this happen?! The doctor and dietician come in and discuss our normal activities and eating habits. I was ready to blow their minds with the healthy options we offer in our house. But the more I talked, I realized we don’t do that great of a job. I mean I make better choices for myself, but I toss easy foods that are processed and sugary at my kids. Mainly because all I’ve heard is she will grow out of it. I’ve also been so quick to blame dad. He rarely cooks for them and also gives junk. Boy we’re my eyes opened. I’m failing her miserably.
I left there defeated. Down on myself. Questioning how I am even allowed to have these kids?! But the truth of the matter is, I’m trying to make things better. I’m still learning. She’s going to be ok because we are taking the right steps now! Her labs were all borderline high, except Vitamin D which was low. We are going to take the approach of diet change first and redraw labs at the end of the program. She’s also going for a sleep study, as she has all the signs for sleep apnea, and start a vitamin supplement. She will get to meet with the dietician and psychologist in a few weeks to learn about emotional eating and eating right.
This is going to be a really great adventure. Keep us in your prayers and we will keep you posted! ❤️